a letter to a wise man

dear TM,

with all respect and buckets and bundles of hopes, i do truly wish you will be there on my graduation day. it has been a pleasant dream all along to receive the scroll (my scroll) from you. i've seen my seniors went through that experience and with the look on their faces i knew how proud they were on that day. after all, that was one of the solid reason i did choose to further my studies at UTP from the beginning.

a dear friend of mine informed me that you are now well enough, unlike last year where your condition was not that good, hence your absence on 2010 graduation. however this year, i hope you can make it to UTP, Tronoh because besides my family, you're the main important person on that day. i know this all sounds silly since i never knew you in person, let alone ever talking to you (oh i did, indirectly because i asked you a question during one of your speeches years ago), but due to my admiration towards you, hence the hope, my hope. at least a girl can dream, right TM?

p/s: i always visualize me have a long talk with you over teh tarik and roti canai, overlooking klcc :)) ahhh, thats so nonsense to be true yet still, a girl can dream. only that, i  think some i can work it out to be reality while some remain as dreams ;/

sincerely,
syazana Izzati Zakaria.

kung fu panda

please watch.

i know i know. for those who are close to me, you may find my statement as a surprise. syazana doesnt watch cartoon EXCEPT Up. yes yes. you are so RIGHT. i dont watch cartoons. i HATE watching cartoons. no one can ever forces me to watch cartoon with them including my dearest sisters.
however, last friday night, my sister and friend managed to influence me to watch Kung Fu Panda. after loads of persuasion the seemed to be endless, i agreed. that was because tickets for XMEN FIRST CLASS are sold out. so yeah, the sole choice that left was Kung Panda. we picked 3D.

huaaaaa. i couldnt know believe myself that i enjoyed the whole movie so much. like, seriously you guys should go and watch. there are lines of funny conversations and that movie inspired me a bit. for someone who procrastinates as much as me, one of the memorable quote from the movie that i remembered most is;

"whats important is NOW"

MCR

Ohhh gimme a break.

Not that I’m talking about anyone, it’s just my burning desire that seems like commanding to blog every single thoughts that occured in my brain. Why am I being like this? Is this the post-regret syndrome? Well I took it well. I knew all along why I DID HAVE TO get rid the previous-cious blog. you get the word that right? I meant to state previous and precious hence the previouscious. Erghhh, see I even write that twice. Duhhh

I’m easily distracted. And now like that’s gonna happen because it won’t, it will not. (yet again, the repetition).

So I’ve been listening to this is how I disappear, repeatedly, for more than two hours now. I didn’t even like this song this much back then. I am averse to admit the exponentially increasing interest in MCR just within this couple of hours, mainly the songs from The Black Parade, besides nostalgically connected to the margin for longing somewhere between the melody. *weak smile*

I know they do have newer albums than this one am listening to, but yes, I’m lame and slow like that. I care not of how old the songs are, I just cherish the melody.

So now, MCR it is.

Rumours alleged that they’re going to disband, or they just did already? whatever.

I need sleep.

1st-please be bothered

I don’t really possess a decisive mind? do i?

Well, as I just decided to read more on non-fiction, (un)fortunately I pretty convinced my time will be occupied with reading my newly purchase books. Three (3) of them altogether.

 1. Mitch Albom; have a little faith

2. Jeffrey Archer; Cat o’ Nine tale

3. Dan Brown; the lost symbol

But hey, I’ve been craving for the lost symbol since forever and tell you what, it was in my list for a long long time. I shouldn’t let myself wait for that long, hence the book on my study table. Hehs

Do I really have to justify myself? Nah.. didn’t think so.

Lets moving on.

Does anybody care to tell me how on earth this yellow song is compelled to be so enthrall and spellbind? Errr..

I have a lot going on in my mind before I finally made myself sit down quietly on the floor, beside my historic study table, and now all I have is a blank mind;forcibly trying to string gushing of words together before the ideas slip away. The problem is my fingers can’t keep themselves from the delete button on the right side of this damn keyboard. So you tell me, how am I supposed to go after my celerity thoughts? huh..another phony excuse for lack of ability to really transform my thought into the form of words.

One good thing I’ve learnt along the years to pursue this one hobby of mine- blogging that is, that I cannot be afraid of what people are gonna say or usually judge on what I wrote. But of course, I must not consciously and purposely write just to sting people’s feeling which I won’t. I think I have a whole lot more to write about than just to entertain the fellow readers with calumnious entries. So there, my point is, usually we bloggers are judged by the way. Don’t take it too deep. It brings nothing but bitter, really.

Every so often, I got asked by some individuals on whether I’d be concerned on the subject of how many readers do I have. To tell you the truth, I couldn’t care less on that matter. I guess, it depends on your purpose of blogging. If you want to be gratified with constant feedbacks (which I don’t classify as bad either) for every post, in that case you may feel troubled if there is no reader. Unlike me, who just blog for fun, sharing morsel of my on-going yarn to some friends and even strangers. It’s good to have someone reading to my endless bellyache and grumble at the end, and it’s better when your good friends personally ask you about it and discuss over the phone or messengers. For what is worth, just do blog based on your intention and heed less on what others may think. if they do judge you, it's based on superficiality only. one can never be so damn honest in writing, revealing everything. and for that matter, they dont know you unless they're close to you personally.

On the other note, I couldn’t care less of my placement. Seriously. Ok, that’s one big fat lie. Of course I do seriously care about it. my life depends on it. haven’t I convinced you guys enough during interview? Now I think I should’ve really winked at one of them and flash million dollar smile. (did i wear lipstick on that day? errr do i ever have lipstick in the very first place??)  Just kidding.

I’m just hoping for the best from Allah. He knows best, that’s proven to be true scores of time in the past years. Have a little faith cuz it brings great deal of good.

p/s: just stop thinking what others may think about you, because more often than not they don't. just go on pursuing what you want to pursue, true friends stand by you. it all that matters. the rest, well.. you decide.

songs

Is there any song that can make you smile right there and then? The kind that makes you suddenly see the bright side of everything with colorful rainbows and might be some portion of fireworks in between. I have a few that I sort of as the soundtracks of my life.

1.Mr Brightside; The killers

2. the middle;Jimmy eat world

3.Glad; Tyler Hilton

4. Kissing you; Miranda Cosgrove

5.Jika kau tiada; Yusry ft Erra Fazira

6. Purity; Korean Drama soundtrack.

I usually look out for the lyrics, but these are exceptional cases. There’s no such as intricate or absorbing storyline out of these, let alone any historic past engaged between myself and the songs. However their melody is magnetic to my eardrums.

before dawn

"There is a distinct difference between a wise man and a clod. That can be heard when they are speaking. One shouldn’t look up herself or himself too high. You might stumble if your eyes are fixed to the skies instead of the front. One, might also trip if he walked while looking back."

Spread the florid table-clothe on the lush green grass under a yew tree, overlooking looming mountains on a fine day with some scones and a pot of tea should be lavish enough for a twisted soul like yours truly. A girl needs some nature therapy, trying to figure out her life; placing the missing puzzles. Oh, how I wished a plane ticket to Bristol or Bath mayhap, lying on my study table when I open my eyes in the morning. Too much of daydreams bring not so much good. Bear that in mind, girls (and boys).

I’ve been immersed myself into A Knight in Shining Armor until my eyes went red and moist. That’s the effect of reading from computer screen, so-called ergonomic. I put a halt on the reading and planning to venture into something else that usually comes up either watching movies or anything on TV; the two tedious options I pledge as boredom by heart.

Most of my friends took part-time job while waiting for our application or placement to be responded. At least, they do have something to do during the day and are enveloped with tiresome as the night approached. Thus, they easily drift off into a deep sleep. Unlike me, who is still wide awake in the middle of the night and only will be able to sleep when the sun rises from the east. Looking on the bright side, within a month I managed to finish my reading on some books that I bought like a lifetime ago. hehe.. Talking about procrastination, here’s the queen with enormous baroque pearl tiara on my auburn head. Auburn?? My ass, tummy. Just kidding.

It seems like reading is the sole choice I have to fill up my time besides watching TV which I have done more than a lot lately, and I have no desire to watch anymore series or movies that I fervently download before I kissed warm goodbye to UTP. Flashing back to the time where Gwyneth Paltrow still dated the foxy Ben Afflect, I think I’ve much more than reading to do during holiday. Oh yes, being a kid is very much wonderful, nay? and the perspective of paying my own bills, renting house or apartment, or going over for a visit to car dealer are still alien matters for me to swing. However, that’s how life going to treat me soon. Very soon.

So my friends, who are in the same heels, don’t waste and linger around your house without doing nothing if you too don’t have part-time job. Let us together pick a book from the shelf and read. Jadikan budaya membaca amalan kita.

a close friend of mine told me that there’s no such thing as nothing to do because there are many things that can be done. Such as, as a muslim, it’s good to read and understand the holy quran translation every now and then. After all, that is the greatest book amongst all. Even the big-time bestsellers cannot compete with that.

And thereby Hangs A tale

Just finished reading And Thereby Hangs A tale by Jeffrey Archer. The kind of book that will be picked up every now and then for reading, I must say. All the short stories caught my attention definitely but there are a few I sorted out to be my favourite.

I’ve to admit, this is my first time reading his works and captivated by his words. Nice one!

Happy reading everyone :D

tagged by Anis :)

Once you have been tagged,you are suppose to write a note, with 25 random thing, fact, habits or goal about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tag you, it's because I want to know more about you. Your cooperation is highly appreciated.

1. Good books, good music and super-fast internet connection make my smile even wider.

2. whenever I’m involved with karaoke with my friends, we prefer rock kapak. Hehe

3. I am muslim, malay and Malaysian.

4. I fell in love for the first time when I was 16; not for who he was, but just fling fling crush thing. Hehe

5. My day used to start with a mug of hot Nescafe but not anymore.

6. KLCC is my favourite skyscraper, Eiffel Tower too. Hence, my interest lies in french language and Petronas.

7. Have always wanted to further studies in the UK. insyaAllah, kalau ada rezeki.

8. I’ve always had a thing for Leonardo Dicaprio. winkwink

9. whenever I have problem and want to do some thinking, I’d prefer to listen to Korean/French/Spanish/hindi songs. As long as it’s not the language that I understand.

10. Up until now, I only have 2 favorite series; one tree hill and Popular.

11. I don’t follow ANTM.

12. I’ve been trying to watch LOTR for uncountable times, and ended up sleeping. No kidding.

13. My football star would be Fernando Torres. Hence, the endless support for Liverpool.

14. suka maen squash dengan sarah, nafisah, and hoping saiey will join us next time.

15. gila rindu kt utp dan semua2 yang sewaktu dengannya spt teh ais pak ali, koteow goreng makcik chicken chop, teh ais pak ali lagi, padang utp, tasik utp, hutan, swimming pool etc etc etc

16. History was my favourite subject back in school.

17. Out of all movies I’ve ever watched, Armageddon made my cry the most. Sob sob sob

18. I love my parents, sisters and ma famille and they are my priorities

19. Having this one dream to pursue reading and writing in one of the finest universities in the UK. insyaAllah, ameeen.

20. I wanna spend a day with Tun Mahathir over Nescafe and roti bakar, talking about life and achievements for the whole day.

21. A graduate from UTP.

22. “sekali SSP memencak, kejayaan pasti di puncak”. Not sure whether they’re still using this phrase for school. I miss my high school years. Lots of virtues learnt but have yet to master all of ‘em.

23. Some particular songs are soundtrack of my life.

24. I write well when I’m depressed.

25. I wish everyone of us will have a blissful, wonderful, prosperous and blessed life. insyaAllah.

Dear Astronauts

Dear Neil Armstrong and Buzz Aldrin, were both of you really reached the moon?

There are a few conspiracy theories that are well known to challenge on this matter – did men make a small step on the moon that lead to a giant step to the mankind? 

I just happened to watch a documentary about this issue which I downloaded almost a month ago just now. Regardless what some people might say, I still am holding to my belief that they were actually reached to the moon.

The image of Neil Armstrong in his white NASA uniform, doing the moon walk in standard 4 text book 13 years ago is still fresh in my memory. I’m sure some of you too. Science did not really succeed to fascinate me at that time, but yes the fact about two young brave lads who were brave enough to take the challenge by going to the moon excites me; a 10 year-old girl I used to be. At that time, I never questioned the theories stated, I was full of acceptance.

Along the years, as I am growing up the issues regarding this matter are never closed, but becomes more and more questionable. Being curious, wanting to know thus I’ve read a few articles on the internet and managed to swallow some details from both sides; the ones who claim it was true and the ones who against it.

From there, I can outline some highlights points which have been arguable since decades ago

1. Unparallel shadow of objects taken including the astronaut based on pictures taken on the moon.

2. How the American flag seemed “berkibar” in the windless environment.

3. Moon walk.

4. Since they were on the moon, the stars should be brighter but there are none to be found in the pictures taken.

 If you too are anxious to know about these details, then it’s a recommendation for you to watch this documentary entitled: The truth behind moon landing. The arguments from both sides were presented. Besides, it does also help us to understand the basic physics even better for not-so-bright physics students like me. hehe..

After all, statistics showed NASA employed 400 000 people for this project back in 1969 and I don’t think everyone of them is so much of heart-stone type by not popping out the truth if it all were just another studio project.