the point to get stronger.

The sound of a breaking heart is almost loud as the screaming that is projected by the voice, but only can be heard by the owner of the heart.

Today was dull. I tried my best to stay awake to the reality, however there’s this one big space of emptiness and silence that seem so lurid for me to bear. I cried soundlessly inside and told myself every single thing will eventually get better. The broken heart will be fixed, the emptiness will be filled and the loud silence will fade away.

It’s worth it. If I could go through this alive, then I know I’d be a different person later on. insyaAllah. Allah will not burden us with something that we cannot handle, that’s what I’ve been telling myself. And as for now, I hold tightly Quran Al-Maidah;06.

.... Allah does not intend to make difficulty for you, but He intends to purify you and complete His favor upon you that you may be grateful.

This is a phase and this too shall pass.

As someone wise told me once;” Allah tengah ajar kau sabar and redha tu” very simple yet very deep.

Letting the balloon go away.

Weird how a stranger could give some meaning and way to look at your problems without you even realize it.

It was last Friday morning and I was ready getting ready for work. Then this one beautiful song was on air. It was Arabic and I couldn’t figure out the meaning when I started listening to it. I glanced through and its lyrics captured my heart right there and then. All the heavy burdens I was carrying for the whole week was gone vanished in a split of second. And my tears started rolling down my cheeks like waterfall.

Law Kana Bainana al-habeeb : if the beloved (Muhammad SAW) were among us.

Subhanallah. It is such a beautiful song.

I started to think how he would be saying if he knew my problem that burdens me was. I was very ashamed for the thought of it because that was not really a problem at all. Let me put this way. If I were to let go of that thing as of now, I won’t go for Jahannam for it. That problem was not part of my responsibilities at all. True, my heart is still aching every now and then due to it and this is a phase I have to endure. That too, shall pass. insyaAllah.

So friends, let’s prioritize our responsibilities and amanahs. J

Below is the translated lyrics:


Kalaulah Kekasih-Mu, masih berada bersama-sama kami,
Akan terlunaslah segala hutang dan semakin hampirlah
dengan haruman Baginda, sebelum hilangnya,
rasa yang meronta-ronta untuk berada hampir dengan Kekasih-Mu.

Berada berhampiran Baginda, jiwa turut menjadi harum
Dan apa jua yang kalian doakan kepada Allah, akan diperkenankan,
Cahaya Nabi Muhammad tidak akan pernah sirna,
Sempatkanlah kami bertemu dengan Baginda,
Wahai Tuhan yang Maha Memperkenankan doa hamba...

Hidayahmu kepada alam merata meluas,
Tanda hampirnya kasih sayang Tuhan pemberi hidayah,
Hadith-hadithmu ibarat sungai mengalir jernih,
Berada di sisimu bagaikan dahan yang tumbuh segar dan basah.

Kutebus diriku dengan dirimu, wahai Kekasihku,
Nabi Muhammad yang mulia, yang asing,
Berada berhampiranmu, jiwa menjadi harum,
Wahai yang diutuskan sebagai tanda kasih sayang Tuhan kepada seluruh alam....

Wahai Kekasihku, wahai Nabi Muhammad
Wahai doktor hatiku, wahai yang dipuji dipuja
Dirimu memiliki kelebihan yang diakui
Oleh Tuhan yang turut berselawat ke atasmu.