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Monday, January 31, 2011

gasped words

We never knew how it hurts to lose somebody if we never endure the pain ourselves.

My heart ached when my aim deviated from where it supposed to hit? That reminds me of a book; zen in the art of archery; a book that I keep but unread.

Somehow, I felt connected with this song – I love the way you lie. 
“sometimes we said things, we hit things”

Duhh, revealed too much of oneself in a blog, in some way seems so pathetic. I think that’s how I look at myself sometimes. Not everytime.

Twisted ropes. There, that is problem. Pretty PLEASE with red cherries on top, would anyone mind to show me how to untwist it?

I took this train, and it was hell of a journey. I’m tired of the north wind, but being a stubborn I am I’m going to sail this journey to the end. When the wind against you, your speed changes; slower down. Trust my word; it’s worth the energy to go through it.

I’m done waiting outside the line. Count me in now, and then you would wish you never in. Count on that.



Sunday, January 30, 2011

not a gossip girl

i'm not a gossip girl. someone that you can just click/touch the "send" button for you to send me a blast and expect me to spread to the whole world. no, i'm just not a gossip girl. with that, i don't really care of which guy serena is out to see, or any of blair's cheap schemes. i am just not made to care just about them because i know world does not just evolve around those two. 

moral values: you should know by now that there's not every single thing is orbiting elliptically around you or myself. that won't be an ail truth for you to accept if you know ever learnt to accept thing as it is. and if try to change something, just make it's worth to change it and then it'd worth the effort.

well, i'm not a gossip girl. i know you dont love me, and i know you dont have to.
 

Saturday, January 29, 2011

And thereby Hangs A tale

Just finished reading And Thereby Hangs A tale by Jeffrey Archer. The kind of book that will be picked up every now and then for reading, I must say. All the short stories caught my attention definitely but there are a few I sorted out to be my favourite.

I’ve to admit, this is my first time reading his works and captivated by his words. Nice one!

Happy reading everyone :D

Friday, January 28, 2011

Happy Birthday Abah

Dear Abah,
I know you probably will not ever stumble upon my blog because I kept it secret from you.
but still, I want the whole world know that today marks a significant day since 51 years ago.
Happy Birthdayyyyyyy


My father is not a much of a reader himself except for GILA-GILA (comic magazine) and newspaper. But to rethink of it, my favorite pastime which is reading was born due to his consistency of buying me books. From beginning, early in my age I am not good with coloring and such, I sighed for the sight of those. I am more into reading and writing, I must say. I had this story telling competition in school, so my father bought me a book. There were three stories in them; very wise one. That was the first on my have-read list, followed by endless fairytales and fictional story books. Thank you, abah.

I watched Armageddon for the first time with my father back in 1998. I didn’t really understand the movie well because there was no subtitle and being only 10 who couldn’t spell properly English words, it made kind of hard to understand the story. A.J (Ben Afflect) was very pretty good looking at that time, together along with brunette beauty such as Liv Taylor. Bruce Willis was my father’s favorite and that answered why he bought that particular movie in the first place. That was the kind of movie that made me shivering and my adrenaline in high speed mode. I was quite excited because well, at that time I just discovered about meteor in school. I never knew it could be so big if that crash us, which would be the end of human kind. The soundtrack from Aerosmith- I don’t wanna miss a thing is just perfect and was a hit too at that time. There’s just so much love in the song which is more or less defining unconditional love. All I can see out from that particular song has always been the love between a father and his daughter. Don’t you think so?

Of course I did have arguments with my parents for several matters. As a daughter, I believe it’s my duty to apologize and not to drag the arguments longer. no matter how bad things could’ve been between you and your family, remember by heart that they always love you. just that, they don’t know how to show it sometimes and they do have different views.

again, happy birthday Abah.


with love,
kakak, angah, achik and baby.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

tagged by Anis :)

Once you have been tagged,you are suppose to write a note, with 25 random thing, fact, habits or goal about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tag you, it's because I want to know more about you. Your cooperation is highly appreciated.



1. Good books, good music and super-fast internet connection make my smile even wider.
2. whenever I’m involved with karaoke with my friends, we prefer rock kapak. Hehe
3. I am muslim, malay and Malaysian.
4. I fell in love for the first time when I was 16; not for who he was, but just fling fling crush thing. Hehe
5. My day used to start with a mug of hot Nescafe but not anymore.
6. KLCC is my favourite skyscraper, Eiffel Tower too. Hence, my interest lies in french language and Petronas.
7. Have always wanted to further studies in the UK. insyaAllah, kalau ada rezeki.
8. I’ve always had a thing for Leonardo Dicaprio. winkwink
9. whenever I have problem and want to do some thinking, I’d prefer to listen to Korean/French/Spanish/hindi songs. As long as it’s not the language that I understand.
10. Up until now, I only have 2 favorite series; one tree hill and Popular.
11. I don’t follow ANTM.
12. I’ve been trying to watch LOTR for uncountable times, and ended up sleeping. No kidding.
13. My football star would be Fernando Torres. Hence, the endless support for Liverpool.
14. suka maen squash dengan sarah, nafisah, and hoping saiey will join us next time.
15. gila rindu kt utp dan semua2 yang sewaktu dengannya spt teh ais pak ali, koteow goreng makcik chicken chop, teh ais pak ali lagi, padang utp, tasik utp, hutan, swimming pool etc etc etc
16. History was my favourite subject back in school.
17. Out of all movies I’ve ever watched, Armageddon made my cry the most. Sob sob sob
18. I love my parents, sisters and ma famille and they are my priorities
19. Having this one dream to pursue reading and writing in one of the finest universities in the UK. insyaAllah, ameeen.
20. I wanna spend a day with Tun Mahathir over Nescafe and roti bakar, talking about life and achievements for the whole day.
21. A graduate from UTP.
22. “sekali SSP memencak, kejayaan pasti di puncak”. Not sure whether they’re still using this phrase for school. I miss my high school years. Lots of virtues learnt but have yet to master all of ‘em.
23. Some particular songs are soundtrack of my life.
24. I write well when I’m depressed.
25. I wish everyone of us will have a blissful, wonderful, prosperous and blessed life. insyaAllah.
Sometimes, I don’t understand certain mentality of people.

For example, Kingdom A has seriously and brutally attacked by villainous, black hearted group of genius people just because they won’t settle for what have been given to them but wanting more. They bomb, they kill, they forbid children from going to school, they bomb the school, they bomb the mosques, they bomb everything that they can bomb. Obviously, the citizens in Kingdom A need every kind of help they can get such as medicine, food and all necessary desiderata.

However, let’s say the neighboring country don’t like the leader of Kingdom A and some comments stated that people in Kingdom A themselves are not united. Is it a human-nature to just let these people being including children, women, babies being attacked and won’t even have the chance to look at sunrise with a smile on their faces throughout their lives? I think it just so wrong that way. Totally wrong especially they are being assailed due to hatred to their religion.

Hence, it’s not wrong to offer endless prayers, supply of medication, food, clothes through the right channel to them. Prayers are one of the crucial aspects that we often overlook.

Never forget that – Doa adalah senjata orang Mukmin.

Let’s help our Muslim relatives in Palestine by donating money, or clothes, whichever relevant to their needs. That’s the least we can do from here. who knows, from there the bits that we do for trying to help from here will eventually free. It does sound unreachable but we never know what waits for us in the future. With His will, the shining ray of glory light wills be theirs one day. insyaAllah…

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

pukul 3 pagi

Pukul 3 pagi, hari Rabu, bulan Januari.

Tips: Kalau ada masalah tak boleh tidur dan internet lembab di masa yang sama, adalah dinasihatkan untuk standby novel, buku buku ilmiah, save as entri-entri blogger pilihan anda supaya boleh baca bilamana tak boleh tidur. Pilihan lain, boleh juga on TV tengok lah cerita apa2 yang menarik di astro sebab of course kalau diharap channel yang tersedia mungkin tak ada siaran dah waktu sekarang.

Pilihan yang paling tepat dan menguntungkan tentulah membuat solat tahajjud, qiamullail atau membaca Al-quran.

Dan aku, aku pilih pilihan yang kurang menguntungkan tetapi insyaAllah harapnya ada ilmu bermanfaat yang masuk. Aku pilih bahan bacaan, dan kemudian selalunya akan ada mood utk tulis sikit2 kat blog.
Dulu, waktu sekolah rendah pernah kena panggil ke bilik guru.  Waktu tu, aku dan kawan-kawan tunjuk besar kepala sikit kat sekolah. Bukan apa, kami paling senior kot, darjah 6 tu. Lagipun, waktu tu budak-budak. Orang lain fire kita, kita fire balik. Sekarang ni mungkin konsep tu dah bertukar kepada orang fire, kita balas dengan simbahan air. Cool beb.

Ceritanya, aku dipanggil di bilik guru sebab ada aku bergaduh dengan beberapa orang budak ni. Bukan aku sorang je yang gaduh, beberapa kawan aku pun gaduh jugak dengan depa depa  (mereja/dorang) ni. Kononnya pasal isu politik. Hello! Agak2 lah. Budak darjah 6 bukan tahu apa sangat (waktu tu la, dalam situasi aku. Sekarang ni aku tak pulak sebab darjah 6 sekarang advance dalam banyak benda).

Perbalahan antara mulut tu bermula bila beberapa orang classmates aku ni mengejek sukan komanwel. Instead of sebut komanwel, depa dok sebut koman sewel. Oh, itu sudah bikin hati panas sebab aku excited kot tengok dan support sukan tu diadakan kat Malaysia. Aku tak ingat sangat macam mana isu tu boleh timbul antara aku dan beberapa orang rakan aku dan depa tu yang pastinya tuduhan yang kata pembinaan stadium tu slh satu sebab ekonomi meleset tu yang buat aku buka mulut.

Dasar seorang budak-budak, kalau ada fakta yang kita rasa salah kita mesti nak tanya kan. Dan kemudian membentangkan buah fikiran kita. Aku baca dalam paper lain, ni apasal diorang tuduh lain. Lepas tu, meleret lah kepada sedikit pemimpin utama negara pada waktu tu,TM. Arwah atok ada dua tiga kali bawa aku pergi dengar ucapan beliau. Tapi bukan ucapan kempen pilihan raya lah, cuma syarahan ekonomi Malaysia dan sebagainya. Selain tu, hampir setiap tahun harus dengar ucapan beliau di kaca TV pada hari kemerdekaan sebab kena buat karangan. Cikgu BM sekolah aku dulu selalu mintak untuk buat karangan pasal sambutan hari kemerdekaan kita. Secara tak langsung, aku tahulah sikit-sikit status ekonomi negara, dan updates macam sukan komanwel dan sebagainya. Aku pun huraikan kepada kawan2 aku ni dan ternyata mereka ini mungkin terpengaruh dengan cakap2 orang tua di kedai kopi atau di rumah mereka yang memilih parti bulan. Tak kisahlah kan parti bulan ke dacing ke, tapi amatlah sangat tak sesuai utk mengutuk orang tanpa usul periksa. Hence, perbalahan itu pun berlarutan.

Cikgu panggil aku dan kawan2 aku yang kononnya bercakap pasal politik di kelas. Nak kata kena marah tu tak lah, tapi kena sound jugak la. Hehe..
Tapi yang aku nak sampaikan di sini adalah, pentingnya kita mengetahui isu semasa so tak lah kita membuta tuli terima apa saja yang kita dengar.

Kedua, aku tak nampak alasan kuat kenapa nak kena benci pemimpin parti lain dan menggunakan kata-kata kesat utk mereka secara terang-terangan. Belief system orang bukan kita boleh ubah macam ubah saluran tv.

Ketiga, tak payah nak tengok keburukan sesuatu benda sahaja malah elok belek2 side positif perkara tertentu juga.

Keempat, dedahkan budak2 dengan options dan pilihan2 dengan byk benda supaya otak mereka lebih berkembang. Kalau tak puas hati apa-apa pasal politik negara, tak payah bincang depan anak-anak. Bagi persepsi buruk pada mereka kalau tidak dijelaskan dengan betul.

Till then. tata

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

phosphorous

To those who invent the phosphorous bomb,

You are such bunch of geniuses, knowing that phosphorous will keep burning as long as there’s oxygen. Quoted from TM’s blog regarding this,

Phosphorus bombs scattered white phosphorus all over the victims. The phosphorus sticks to the body and burn as long as there is oxygen in the air. It burns through the skin, through the muscles and through the bones. It is impossible to remove the phosphorus without cutting deep into the tissues and bones”

See, I know those of you might’ve worked for such long hours, consumed tons of caffeine, stayed up all night for the sake for experimenting this bomb and not to forget pay rise, bonuses and such. Now, you must be very much happy when you turn on TV, you know all your break neck hard work is totally paid off. You know, when you heard those innocent people screaming, scattered beneath the heated sun, some are fighting, and some are crying their God’s name out loud. You cannot just wipe them out from their land by some white powders. That is absolutely wrong. Well, imagining that you are watching the news with your little boys or girls, I wonder if you have the guts to simply blurt out

oh look! I’ve killed and injured so many children in your age, even the babies with my bombs. Don’t you think that daddy/mommy’s the best scientist in the world?”

I do also wonder how they may react, knowing the fact that they have bloodsucker as their parents.

You might be the ones who don’t drop the bomb, but seriously you are as cruel as the ones who do it. 

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Dear Astronauts

Dear Neil Armstrong and Buzz Aldrin, were both of you really reached the moon?

There are a few conspiracy theories that are well known to challenge on this matter – did men make a small step on the moon that lead to a giant step to the mankind? 

I just happened to watch a documentary about this issue which I downloaded almost a month ago just now. Regardless what some people might say, I still am holding to my belief that they were actually reached to the moon.

The image of Neil Armstrong in his white NASA uniform, doing the moon walk in standard 4 text book 13 years ago is still fresh in my memory. I’m sure some of you too. Science did not really succeed to fascinate me at that time, but yes the fact about two young brave lads who were brave enough to take the challenge by going to the moon excites me; a 10 year-old girl I used to be. At that time, I never questioned the theories stated, I was full of acceptance.

Along the years, as I am growing up the issues regarding this matter are never closed, but becomes more and more questionable. Being curious, wanting to know thus I’ve read a few articles on the internet and managed to swallow some details from both sides; the ones who claim it was true and the ones who against it.

From there, I can outline some highlights points which have been arguable since decades ago
1. Unparallel shadow of objects taken including the astronaut based on pictures taken on the moon.
2. How the American flag seemed “berkibar” in the windless environment.
3. Moon walk.
4. Since they were on the moon, the stars should be brighter but there are none to be found in the pictures taken.

 If you too are anxious to know about these details, then it’s a recommendation for you to watch this documentary entitled: The truth behind moon landing. The arguments from both sides were presented. Besides, it does also help us to understand the basic physics even better for not-so-bright physics students like me. hehe..

After all, statistics showed NASA employed 400 000 people for this project back in 1969 and I don’t think everyone of them is so much of heart-stone type by not popping out the truth if it all were just another studio project.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

happy birthday Angah~~

Today marked a significant point to my beloved sister. Today, she turns 19, one of my favorite age so far.

Happy birthday to you, sweeeeet sister. 

We all here wish for your eternal happiness. Have strong faith in everything you do and don’t let doubts linger around. Kiss them away.Though you are unseen to our eyes, but I can guarantee you that I am excitedly waiting for Chinese New Year holiday to commence.

There’s nothing much to tell about her besides expressing my gratitude to Allah for letting her to be a part of my life. She is 4 years younger than me, the one that I know I can turn to for advices. She’s the one that can make you smile all the way while watching the saddest move ever. Carrying her own positive and negative vibes, but spreading the positive ones to others. Hence, we definitely will feel better to be around her.

She and I practically grew up together. Mother used dress up similarly. That defines if I wore red shirt, then she would be wearing the red shirt too. If I cut my hair short, she wanted hers short too. If I grew my hair long, then I would notice she would scream frantically if my mother didn’t let her. as I had my preparation to enter standard one more than a decade ago, she wanted to have all the materials for schooling purpose too. Hence, everything was double; from school uniform to stationeries. She was only 3 years old that time! The first few weeks of my standard one were a nightmare. She; the abovementioned beloved sister refused to go home after sending me to school yet she stayed around outside my class and peeped through window, giggling. So now you see the reasons why I do love her wholeheartedly. Haha.. it’s hard to get rid of her and I’m used to it!

That little cute rascal has now blossoming into a young lady pursuing her dream to be an accountant. Her choice surprised most of us but we know maths was all she ever interested in while physics was the least. That explains on why she is not with us on her birthday. I believe as I am writing this, she’s in her class taking all in the slides in front of her. Hopefully, she doesn’t fall asleep.

Again, happy birthday sister!

Much love,
Tatie kerchillllll!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

bits on my home

I am home. I am a Malaysian, and I am in my country now. not that I have been somewhere else recently, however as I am holding vividly on to the fact that I want to see the world or should I put precisely places instead of the word world that I’ve always wanted to see, I know I will definitely miss my home. My home sweet home.

A Small country with various races and ethnic ; that is what world knows as Malaysia. Once I read about an article of a few students who were studying abroad mentioned that they were disappointed as most of their classmates didn’t know where Malaysia is but they did aware of Thailand and Singapore. That was almost 13 years back. As for today, I believe more people do know about Malaysia and I even read news about Malaysia politics on The Economist. From there, I knew that some going-ons evolved around or in our country is well known in the west.

Skyscrapers are standing tall with pride shows development of our country has progressed from mud, reddish road to well paved and concrete buildings all around. This is not something a thing that has to be wasted just because some parties do not understand each other. Malaysia needs her freedom longer, and Malaysians need the freedom to treasure and reach to their full potential without being told or summoned. It’s just a shame when some ignorant are pointing fingers with each other without taking any blames let alone to learn the lessons of the past. These people will only let history keeps repeating itself.

I do not wish for Malaysia to be under different colonies once again. Our ancestors had proven their loyalty long ago, fought till the last drop of their blood for independence. We surely do not want that to be a waste. I don’t. Hence, I hope some so-called leaders stop crawling each other’s back. Better to channel their time and energy for future development.

Monday, January 17, 2011

personal reflection

Personally, I have a few novels that I classify as my favorite. No matter how many times I read them, I still figure they are fascinating or interesting and that keeps my momentum to read till the very last page.

I don’t know about you, but as for me I usually have a few chapters in the books that I would skip, which I avoid to give a go for the second time. It’s more than enough to be aware of what was going on through the particular chapters, only once.

I revisited my immature decisions on certain things since I have a lot of free time now. Being unemployed is not necessarily ugly thing since I have a lot of time to do some thinking. For that matter, I now realized how truthful these sayings are:

Allah knows the best” and “time heals

Humans make plans. I do make plans. Some things that I wanted I have right here in my palm, some just slipped away. When I compare my plans with what Allah decides to let me have, its plain crystal clear what He bestows upon me contain more benefits not for just short term but for long term basis.
I got cut by a sharp blade and I survived. One part is due to the medicine, the other one is time and all in between for my cut to finally heal. Praying and trying not to ever make the same mistake to get cut by the same blade and at the same spot. I have plenty of new mistakes that needed my attention to improve.

till then.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

updates

Honestly, (ecewahh, referring to the last post) I don’t like at all reading from computer screen.
Kalau selagi terdaya tenaga, printer dan ink yg banyak aku akan print all the lecture notes dulu. Ini apatah lagi nak membaca buku atau novel direct from computer. I probably will last only 10 minutes then off I go to do something else. So now u see, why I don’t really bother your posted links anywhere in facebook. Hehehe

I am turning 23 yo this year. 23! Feeling a little old, but well, the outside is always 16. I can guarantee that! (knocks head on the desk)
Nothing much to share though. have a good day

Owh by the way, any recommendation of good books or songs please lemme know ya. Just email, or text or write on my wall. And I’m also going to delete the weebly blog. that is pretty unsure thing to do but well, will do later if it’s not functioning to convey my writing.


Honesty

Writing should be about honesty. And, being honest, I mean being truly honest with people sometimes can be very hard, let alone to be honest with our own self. Not everybody can do that hence don’t feel bad because that’s something I know we all can learn as long as we have the urge and willing to taste some bitterness.

I found myself deleting most of my sentences I wrote due to certain aspects in the past that neatly fold, not to ever mention to my face or anyone’s face ever again. After some time, I think it’s unfair to still let myself ashamed of something unimportant. As a matter of fact, I can even laugh whenever some memories cross my mind once in a while. That, remind me how childish I was in dealing with emotion, letting me know I was once confused with what I wanted and what I truly needed. That, also remind me how much or little I have gained or lost along the way. 

All in all, the ability to recall and gasped little values and virtues that I’ve earned so far in somehow I am grateful for.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

2011

4 days passed and I didn’t write a single word on New Year post on fresh, sunny day of 2011. I was busy doing nothing at home. Just kidding, there are lot to be done (specifically said is to read) but I didn’t do much.
I didn’t have a long list of resolution this year, not even a short one. I still have a few from last year hence I just one to carry on with those first then proceed with the new ones, insyaAllah.

The previous post is bits and pieces about my years in UTP as I promised. The details are not very specific not due to secrecy but I chose to keep them to myself to flash back one day. There are more challenges to come, more presentations to do (I wish), studies to proceed (insyaAllah) , career, repay my parents, unidentified guy to marry, having my own family and such. Hence, hopefully I am equipped with strong faith to face the present, to plan the future and accept what’s best for me with redha and to reflect the experiences for lesson learnt.

Happy 2011 everyone. May Allah bless us all. ameen

UTP, that I miss.

I know I’ll be starting UTP very soon. Or perhaps, I am already missing being there; to be alone in my room, surfing the internet, downloading movies, chatting instead.

There are a few things that I know I am going to pine for:

1. DC++
I was quite surprise to find out the authorities in my uni terminated its function when I got back from internship. To tell you the truth, it’s way lot faster than torrent or any other downloading websites. I definitely am not going to elaborate what DC++ is in here, but if there are hubs holders or anyone that are responsible to make DC++ was alive in UTP back then, thank you very much. You made my years in UTP, seriously. I can’t imagine myself drooling and rooting to see what happened towards Peyton, Lucas or Brooke in One Tree Hill or to figure out Blair’s schemes in Gossip Girl. Hence, thank you very very very much. Besides books, then I know there are a whole lot more to treasure; series, movies, songs. Sadly, I’m not much of a gamer, but I believe my friends are thankful for that as well.

2.  walking/stars gazing.
My first time doing star-gazing was back on 2004 with few friends of mine which now are not really in contact with me. I do have them in my friends’ list in facebook, but we don’t really communicate or exchange stories with each other anymore. Frankly, I chose to forget one of them due to personal reason.

 I never really gaze stars for quite sometimes until I got into UTP.  I have some sweet friends who didn’t mind to just go out to the field just to watch the hanging stars above in the frigging cold windy air surrounded us. Some nights, there were none to be found in the skies, bleakest and gloomy but strings of good and funny conversations did up the night.  For now, realizing the facts that these sweet friends of mine are thousand miles away haunts me with a feeling of melancholy. For the record, it’s pretty amazing to have wide big field in front of you, dangling stars that are million light years away from you when you look up, and there sitting beside you; your sweetest and close friends that you could confide anything in them, telling them your problems and they just listen so well. I knew they couldn’t just put pieces of my puzzle into places right there and then and I did also realize that they couldn’t just kiss away my doubts but all I knew; they were there right beside me, PHYSICALLY. and that's more than enough.

3. teh ais pak ali

Knowing me well, then you can order for my drink if we eat out somewhere because my choice has always been the same; teh ais. Lucky me to be in utp where I could find one of the finest teh ais I ever taste that slaked my thirst. I’m going to miss that too very much.

4. volleyball/ squash time
UTP  might not be the largest university in Malaysia yet equipped with almost full facilities such as swimming pool, badminton/tennis/table-tennis/basketball/netball/volleyball/squash court and such. I spent most of my evenings at volleyball court during my sophomore year and turned to squash a year later to get all sweaty. I fell in love with volleyball since a decade ago and that’s not a new piece but for squash, I just started couple of years back. That, spring to be surprisingly fun.  
On the last week in UTP, my friends and I visited swimming pool for the last time without intention to swim but just merely molding some memories. Hehe.. For that, it’d just fill with laughing, teasing each other and throwing ourselves in the swimming pool helplessly. It feels like only yesterday.

5. Friends
Last but not least, the greatest treasure amongst all is the friendship I built with my friends. being away from the family definitely did yield a huge void in my heart. Having such some good friends to talk to while being there is something I am forever grateful to Allah. Alhamdulillah.

This is not in the chronological order, mind you. The absence is there, deep in my heart obviously but I’ll try to live with it. have a good day, friends.