loyal

young and dangerous. this picture dated on 1998. thanks to mr google.

so yeah, the one of the solid reasons why i watched the social network till the end. hehs..
and yeap, waiting for friends for benefits. i watched the trailer just now and it looks typical but again, so what. been ok with typical all this while.

i love you JT, says the 10 year-old girl in me.
mwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

aku dan bola sepak

okay now i know why my life is colourful because i watch football. because i was a chelsea fan since god knows when, but decided to move on with liverpool and just got back to chelsea. i'm wired like that. not to go with the flow but when it comes to football, it's all about Torres. and so yeah, i'm loyal like that. duhh

i dont understand why i dont like man u so much eventho CR was with them. hehs..i definitely know the reason. needless to mention here but well, i'm a happy girl to sleep with victory tonight. Barca is so great. bak kata status kt FB-Barca dah tak layak main dekat bumi. hoho..great game, great game. just satisfied my need of a good football game which my favourite team won. just what i needed on a good day like this. :))

happy sunday people. happy sunday.

i'm hitting my lowest point where constant communication is very much important. i'm not good with gestures, hence i never expect from others too.

erm..there was signboard on the road stated; (insert a girls name), will you marry me?


and everybody was like, waaaa..very sweet. but why didnt i feel that way? huuu..i'm weird like that. it explains why i dont mango juice. errr...

bits

1. stop faking, and start being your true self.
when i say true self, it means all the goods in you and another that comes with it. thats fitrah. if we dont seem to find it anywhere nearer, then seek for it until we see the glow.

2. when you like someone so much, bear in mind that one day he/she might be not as that special to you anymore. not that your love for him/her is depreciating, but seriously, we cant really foresee the future. so dont get surprised for what you may encounter.

3.im tired. body and mind. off to sleep.

p/s: antara bintang paling terang is a lame name. i need a new one :) feel free to suggest.

Lily Allen - Littlest Things

favourite?

yes

on a day like this

you know, a day like today is rarely come in my life. the kind of day where i dont feel folding cloths is a burden, mopping the room happily. so yeah, this is one of those special days, so how i classify.

i swear i've written up a post during walking back from the train station. i had so many things to share, some stories are even funny, but now i could not recall any. oh my brain, please be active. i should upgrade my brain. i really should. :PP

what else?

huh...

nothing else. how dull this post could be? because it has already the dull-EST. gosh, i need to scratch my head for some decent ideas to write.

signing off.


ding!
just when i was about to click the "publish post" icon, this particular thought hit me. hehe..anyways, i've been craving to play squash since forever and no one wants to play with me. the usual cliques back in UTP, who used to play this sport together are just right here in KL BUT they're so LAZYYYYY. for god sake, dudes, we're not even that far away. petang2 boleh main kot squash tu kat bawah. ish! why lah these guys are so busy with futsal till they forgot that I, Syazana, am their friend and need somebody to play squash with! i know i suck in squash, but still, fun kot. hence, if any of you guys read this, especially kau yang kt level 13 tu, jom ler kite turun gelanggang, ecewah.

oh, to those girls who have yet to watch HE'S NOT JUST THAT INTO YOU, please do so. because once you do, then all of assumption bubbles about the guy you like will just evaporate. and with that, you can clearly see the reality. alex and gigi are so sweet. beth and neil are just inseparable and honest and are so meant for each other. (thats not me who's speakin. thats my hormones!)

so okay for now. i miss you girls badly. yeah, you GIRLS. you know who you are. take care

mwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhxx

littlest things

when i do have something that seems to draggy for me to do, i'll be so lazy waking up in the morning. yeah, thats true. i'm not sure when this sort of normal but negative habit dveloped in me, because for all what i knew, i'm sure i was a positive girl. now, it's all unsaid and uncertain.

so yeah, i woke up this morning feeling bad. i dont know why and i dont know why i tell you here. i think i just want to be sincere with my writing. thats it. so yeah, i woke up feeling bad, took a cold shower, switched on the laptop, go thorough feeds on facebook, and glued to a story that keeps me thinking. so basically, my spirit is a bit lifted than i felt the moment i opened my eyes or during i took the shower.

its funny how a person that you rarely see in person, or comment on his/her status, can tell you to have a little faith, hold on there longer, start to live, start reach out, indirectly. just by a simple story. thats the effect of a perfect stranger.

and yeah, these reminders of imam Ghazali are absolutely gonna be on my wall. just in case i forgot. just in case i feel like i'm at the end of the world, or just because.

1.perkara paling jauh adalah masa yang telah berlalu.
2.perkara paling berat adalah amanah
3.perkara paling ringan adalah meninggalkan solat.
4.perkara paling dekat adalah mati.
5.perkara paling tajam adalah lidah manusia.
6.perkara yang paling besar adalah hawa nafsu.

good day people. good day. insyaAllah.

random

my memory is selected. yes, it is. i tend to remember good things than bad things. however at certain time, i remember the bad ones mostly. i am not sure about myself, really.

i read a blog. a girl's blog. she's confused but i think she's sincere whenever she writes her take. i think. i am not sure either.

to talk about selective memories, those senior years in SSP are the core ones. i could still feel the fresh morning breeze when i walked to class. the assembly. the school song. funny. i can sing my school song up until now without fail but hardly memorize certain important l

those years bring me to the fact that i should, i really or maybe probably should forgive myself for my weak judgement. it's never too late to apologize, especially to yourself. the hard thing is, you know what?, is to forgive yourself. yeah, i think so. naah, i am not sure either.

now i think i am full of uncertainty, and left behind. for that matter, i'm not sure either. i think i am lost.

like i mentioned earlier, my judgment is weak. very weak. as if like, it's weakening by days. well, i hope not. but thats what i feel.

i'm speechless, clueless.

disenchanted!

speechless

LANCER. i do truly need one of these.

she's just so beautiful. she is.

;(

i'm sick.
huhu...

and when i questioned myself why did you change that much, that reflects how i too did change as much.
i think it's part of growing up. i hope we both can learn as much as we can along the way.

so much of using this word; much.

the lady doctor said i should really get some rest. i think i should.

what happen

what happened to writing while overlooking Eiffel Tower?
what happened to reading a book per month as i started working, at least?

and yeah, what happened to you, man?????? where's the boy i knew? i'm not in the hope for you to resurrect the young boy once you've been, but still, ah come on, you can do a whole lot much better. i pray for you from afar, old friend.

missing u

i know ive been neglecting my position as a good friend of yours. i didnt wish on your first day of working. babe, i am sooooooooo sorry. i remembered. happy working amizah azid. i miss you more than you could ever imagine. i seriously do. i miss those "gazing-stars" nights and late night walk. god, now i think i miss UTP terribly. there's no free sport complex here. there's not tasik. there's no seniors. well, there are seniors, i think u get what i meant. hehee..remember our target in our first year? those seniors with cars. hehe.. memories..they're just so sweet, arent they? alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah

till then~~