just update

i'm not sure whether this is just a phase i have to go through, or simply put i am no longer have the keen interest in blogging like i used to.

i truly need to shed down some kilos. you know what 3 months at home could do to you especially when your mom is a very excellent cook. so yes, been there and i ate a lot.

my first day was just nice. everything was smooth. alhamdulillah

so i guess this is it for tonight.
have a pleasant night everyone!

march 12 06

after having so much fun bowling at alamanda, my friend told us that she was hungry. i was even hungrier. yeah, seriously. so we went to see if McD was still open. to my surprise, gushing of memories flooded my mind. i've never been to McD at there for quite some time.
then, at a corner of a room, i saw an empty seat, that empty table. i pretty much sure there was where i sat when i cried my heart out, after receiving my result. i cried a lot that day. very. you couldn't even imagine. syui was there, and she witnessed all of it. it was more than pain. it was more.

there i was. after 6 years, standing at the counter while looking at that crying spot, smiling. 6 years ago, i thought my life was over. i thought i couldnt be happier. but there i was, standing and smiling, looking back at those days. so yeah, i never can really predict what the future may bring. the only thing i can do is to keep standing and moving. my dream might be broken once, but well a single drop of hope pushed all this while.

and i have Allah, to be thankful to for all that have been blessed in my life.
thank you Allah. alhamdulillah.

p/s: a post from one of my juniors triggered me to blog on this matter. she's right. SPM might be a huge thing to deal with but well, there are line up of bigger ones awaiting.just keep on moving as long as you've the chance to do so.

as of now

i see a glimpse of my future here. will be working hard from this point

insyaAllah..

haven't i told you that this is one of all i ever wanted since i was still a school kid?
yes, you heard it right :)

today

alhamdulillah.
today, i'll be stepping on another level of commitment.
today, is the first day counted for the first pay. insyaAllah. so how they say :P

best of luck, syazana! best of luck, best of luck.
amin..amiinn...amiiiiinnnn

Dialah tuhan yang menguasai timur dan barat, tiada tuhan melainkan Dia, maka jadikanlah Dia yang menjaga urusanmu.
(Alquran, Surah Muzammil, Ayat 9)

bits of this, bits of that

Less than 2 days, I’ll be heading to Kuala Lumpur for one of my life’s commitment. Hence, the urge to write beautiful essays or to at least come out with a lengthy entry which at least worth some of your time consumed loading my page is absolutely not a dazzling idea for me to hold on to. for now.

My life has been pretty hectic physically and emotionally for the passing two days. Had a long arguments, an intellectual one I would say, because the subjects gyrated around economics-which I only had the very slightest idea of it, and to launch my career in petroleum economics department is a sweet nightmare-, some on political ideas, and sociology, civilization and such. Frankly, yes, we were in the middle of shouting and screaming to each other and were interrupted twice by my father and grandmother. the next hour we were good then the next hour we were fighting like crazy women over these issues. Haha.. a day later, all is forgotten and forgiven. I even miss her being around now.

Air dicincang takkan putus.

I spent the day out, hunting for some decent cloths to wear to the office. Nothing to fuss about though ‘cuz I’m not really a big fan of shopping. I’m a lame shopping partner as well since I’d tell you every color is suitable for you, every combination of pants and blouses are just appealing to be elegant before my eyes. Trust me. you do not want to me to shop with you. don’t bother to ask me to unless, you have no one else to look out for then I’m all here.

What else? oh yes. This is just my humble opinion to this very statement and please do take note that I’m not trying to be bias or sarcastic here, insyaAllah.

Statement:

alah, buat apa nak pakai tudung. Orang yang pakai tudung pun lebih kurang je perangai, malahan ada yang lebih teruk siap ada lovebite semua lagi. Jangan ingat orang pakai tudung baik gile.

Translation: 

huh, for what reason to cover my head. Those girls who do are some as bad as the ones who did not and some even worse. Don’t think that all girls with tudung/veils/shawls are innocent.

Firstly, I think this statement is based on personal anger or dissatisfaction. And is supported by a bunch of people who apparently are emotionally connected to this. One thing that all of us should always remember, nobody in this whole universe is absolute perfect without slightest flaws in whatever terms. Trust me on that. then, to those hold dear to this statement, oh yes you are right by pointing out not every muslim girl who covers their head properly is not all purely innocent. Yes, because no one is in the nearest zone of perfection. But, the only thing that I want to comment here is the first sentence.

Buat apa nak pakai tudung.

thats because your Creator asks you to in the very first place.

Hai anak Adam^[530], sesungguhnya Kami telah menurunkan kepadamu pakaian untuk menutup auratmu dan pakaian indah untuk perhiasan. Dan pakaian takwa^[531] itulah yang paling baik. Yang demikian itu adalah sebahagian dari tanda-tanda kekuasaan Allah, mudah-mudahan mereka selalu ingat.

O children of Adam! We have bestowed raiment upon you to cover yourselves and as adornments, and the raiment of righteousness, that is better. Such are among the evidences, proofs of Allah, that they may remember.

(Al-A’raf:26)

Katakanlah kepada wanita yang beriman: "Hendaklah mereka menahan pandangannya, dan kemaluannya, dan janganlah mereka menampakkan perhiasannya, kecuali yang (biasa) nampak dari padanya. Dan hendaklah mereka menutupkan kain kudung kedadanya, dan janganlah menampakkan perhiasannya kecuali kepada suami mereka, atau ayah mereka, atau ayah suami mereka, atau putera-putera mereka, atau putera-putera suami mereka, atau saudara-saudara laki-laki mereka, atau putera-putera saudara lelaki mereka, atau putera-putera saudara perempuan mereka, atau wanita-wanita islam, atau budak-budak yang mereka miliki, atau pelayan-pelayan laki-laki yang tidak mempunyai keinginan (terhadap wanita) atau anak-anak yang belum mengerti tentang aurat wanita. Dan janganlah mereka memukulkan kakinyua agar diketahui perhiasan yang mereka sembunyikan. Dan bertaubatlah kamu sekalian kepada Allah, hai orang-orang yang beriman supaya kamu beruntung.

And tell the believing women to lower their gaze (from looking at the forbidden things) and protect their private parts (from illegal sexual acts) and not to show off their adornments except that only which is apparent (like palms of hands or one eye or both eyes for necessity to see the way) and to draw their veils all over their bosom, and not to reveal their adornment except to their husbands, their fathers, their husband’s fathers, their sons, their husband’s sons, their bothers, their brother’s son or their sister’s son or their muslim women or their slaves who their right hands possess or old man servants who lacks vigour and small children who have no shame of sex. And let them not to stamp their feet so as to reveal what they hide of their adornment. And all of you beg Allah to forgive you all, o believers that you may be successful.

(An-Nuur:31)

Since the revelation of His words and from there onwards till the end of time, it is something we should obey. It’s not very okay for you to just object and let your hair sway freely on windy days and I respect that because the choice is yours. no one forces you. however, I think that’s just plain stupid when some even dare to question what has been there in the holy book. so yes, now I truly agree with the hadith on why we should guard our tongue. Very true indeed.

To my friends, I’m sorry if this piece of opinion might’ve hurt your feelings. Since I’ve disabled the comment section, you may as well email me your opinions or objection or addition or for further clarification. (and discussion perhaps?)

p/s: talking about do not have the urge to write a lengthy post. so yeah, i think i'm in the mood for it. hehe

insyaAllah

a couple of years ago, someone told me this,

if you think you're in the middle of bleakest crisis, just imagine yourself climbing a very tall tree. imagine you stay there till dawn approaching. gradually, you'll see the early morning light far far away. so at that particular moment, just remember, there's always a light to your problem.

for now, insyaAllah

issues

I salute to the one who came out with this saying- history keeps repeating/ might repeat itself.

Yeah, it sure does if we are not aware of our own history. Addition to that, if we choose staying ignorant to the current issues; happening inside or outside the country. Frankly, I’m not that pious enough to talk about religious thingy if you do ask around to whom that constantly judge me, but still, I think this is a free speech country or at least in the blog-sphere where I can point out a few of my concerns.

hitherto, there are just a lot of cases regard to gay-lesbian. What saddens me the most is, some women who claim themselves as muslims got married in Islamic way where there is solemnization ceremony and all. This couple was interviewed by some foreign reporters and they happily informed that they are now fighting for their right.

As a human being, attached with human nature consisting of sympathy, I am fully conscious of the “corrective rape” is cruel to these gays and lesbians of which now in current practice by certain mob of people in certain countries. (you may refer to cases of corrective rape in google). even in islamic teaching itself, it is never written/mentioned the law to rape or victimize these group of people. we actually have the different way to treat them which is to confine them in a room alone, far from others. 

Reminders are all stated in the Quran.

So when Our Commandment came, we turned the town upside down and rained on them stones of baked clay piled up

Marked from your Lord, and they are not ever far from the evil-doers.

Maka apabila datang (Masa perlaksanaan) perintah kami, Kami jadikan negeri kaum Lut itu diterbalikkan (tertimbus Segala Yang ada di muka buminya) dan Kami menghujaninya Dengan batu-batu dari tanah Yang dibakar, menimpanya bertalu-talu.

Batu-batu itu ditandakan di sisi Tuhanmu (untuk membinasakan mereka), dan ia pula tidaklah jauh dari orang-orang Yang zalim itu.

(AlQuran, Hud:82-83)

And we rained on them a rain (of torment) and how evil of the rain of those that had been warned.

Verily this is indeed a sign, yet most of them are not believers.

Verily, your Lord, He is indeed The Almighty, and the most merciful.

Dan Kami hujani mereka Dengan hujan (azab Yang membinasakan); maka amatlah buruknya hujan azab Yang menimpa kaum Yang telah diberi amaran.

Sesungguhnya peristiwa Yang demikian, mengandungi satu tanda (yang membuktikan kekuasaan Allah); dan Dalam pada itu, kebanyakan mereka tidak juga mahu beriman.

Dan Sesungguhnya Tuhanmu (Wahai Muhammad), Dia lah sahaja Yang Maha Kuasa, lagi Maha Mengasihani.

(AlQuran, As-Shura:173-175).

It’s heartbreaking to know the history, and can do nothing to prevent it from recurring. All I can offer is my prayers.insyaAllah.

smirk!

There are so many things to talk about, yet so little time to write about it.

That is the statement that you probably often hear, but not typically applied in my case. Hehe.. the statement works otherwise for me.

i think i’ll just settle into reading instead of writing. Seriously, day in day out, my life is occupied with the same routine. Nothing much. But I like it tho. Like and adore it very much.

Till then.

Ok people, please tag me so that i’ve solid points to scream in here. hehe

wonderful tonight

Thank you to Liz (Eat, Pray, Love), cuz I’m now stuck in Time’s Travel section. So yes, now I think, travelling is a must do for me besides hunting for the right guy to spend my life with. Hehs. Kidding. There’s none I could do to entitle myself for a great guy except praying to Allah and being great for myself and others first.

Perempuan yang baik adalah untuk lelaki yang baik. insyaAllah.

But but but, there are a lot of things I can do to ensure myself visiting a few interesting places listed out from the travel section. So for now, all I need to do is working more on money part. Oh, it feels so great to have something to look for while living the moments to the fullest.

I feel wonderful tonight. So here a wonderful tale within this wonderful song :)

It's late in the evening; she's wondering what clothes to wear.
She puts on her make-up and brushes her long blonde hair.
And then she asks me, "Do I look all right?"
And I say, "Yes, you look wonderful tonight."

We go to a party and everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady that's walking around with me.
And then she asks me, "Do you feel all right?"
And I say, "Yes, I feel wonderful tonight."

I feel wonderful because I see
The love light in your eyes.
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don't realize how much I love you.

It's time to go home now and I've got an aching head,
So I give her the car keys and she helps me to bed.
And then I tell her, as I turn out the light,
I say, "My darling, you were wonderful tonight.
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight."

i like the simple yet meaningful lyrics. :) thank you eric clapton and michael Kamen for Wonderful Tonight.

drops of jupiter

some people who matter in my life always think i don't care. truth is, i actually do. i really do. it's just that i flunk in my oratory skill of expressing feelings through my very own voice. i do so much better in written words, or actions. but sometimes, my actions depict otherwise too. it's hard to be me, really. haha

the key point here, if you think you're close enough to me, know all my darkest secrets then i just wanna let you guys know you do matter in my life despite my view does not coincide or my opinion does not concur with yours. we've got different brain, dudes. deal with it.

Now that she’s back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there’s time to change, hey, hey, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey, hey, hey
hey, hey, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

But tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Now that she’s back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey, hey
mmmm.....
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there’s room to grow, hey, hey, hey, hey
yea...

Now that she’s back in the atmosphere
I’m afraid that she might think of me as plain ol jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you, even when I know you’re wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone
Conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the milky way

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself

nah nah nah nah nah nah nah 
nah nah nah nah nah nah nah

And did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day

nah nah nah nah nah nah
nah nah nah nah nah nah

And did you fall for a shooting star
Fall for a shooting star

nah nah nah nah nah nah 
nah nah nah nah nah nah

Are you lonely looking for yourself out there

(drops of jupiter:Train,2001.)

the bold lines are my favourite :)

by the way, i can't imagine life without love, pride and deep fried chicken. let alone, without a best friend like you to whom i confide in during endless telephone calls.

i sure am lonely wandering singly around the mystical universe. and i dealt with it.

His words

It is not for the sun to overtake the moon, nor does the night outstrip the day. They all afloat each in each orbit. (36:40)

matahari tidak mudah baginya mengejar bulan, dan malam pula tidak dapat mendahului siang; kerana tiap-tiap satunya beredar 

terapung-apung di tempat edarannya masing-masing.

So glorified is He and Exalted above all that they associate with Him (Subhanallah), and in Whose hands is the dominion of all things, and to him you shall be returned. (36:83)

Oleh itu akuilah kesucian Allah (dengan mengucap: Subhaanallah!) - Tuhan Yang memiliki dan Menguasai tiap-tiap sesuatu, dan kepadaNyalah kamu semua dikembalikan.

between stars and boulevards 1

I heard voices echoed in my head. Those were my thoughts. oh well, I didn’t listen to any of it. yeah, I could be such an ignorant like that.

Tried to finish have a little faith by tonight, however already occupied myself with something else. nope, not a reading material. I’ve had enough dosage of that these days. I think laaa.

What else? oh yes, Aida, I am in the need to dispute your assertion regards to my english proficiency or whatever it is people do call it. mine is just as medium as everybody who learns english as their second language. just like you, duchess. heheeee :PP

I’m running out of points to state. My blog is out of touch, doncha think so?

by the way, I’ve downloaded and installed a few internet browsers for today, for fun. hee

opera, firefox, safari and whatnots. Haha. Tak best pon. I’m just gonna stick with google chrome and explorer. I think laaa.

Bosan ah.

Did you ever listen to careless whisper? If not, go download!

apa-apa pon, still water is the best!