PMS!

I wasn’t a firm believer in PMS. I didn’t. Back in school days, I think girls got the signs of PMS almost every day. I mean, my friends would usually say “ I’m in PMS mode. That’s why I’m hungry.” Or “I can’t study today. PMS” or those weird cravings. I seriously could not fathom what were they saying!

Science subject in form 3 changed a bit of my perspective towards PMS. By then, I knew it’s true. There are signs of PMS stated in that think green SASBADI reference book. One of the symptoms was mood swing. I was a happy kid, you know. I can barely remember I had mood swing back then, that’s pretty true. Still, until that time, I didn’t use PMS as the reason if I ever felt like sleeping the whole Saturday the whole weekend. I just knew that I was lazy to study. I even forced myself to sleep. Hehe. However, I rarely opted to behave such way since the word of PMR exam could make us shiver. What was the big deal about it, I still couldn’t measure. 8A was a very big deal to everyone.

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So now, as years went by, I changed a bit. I started to feel uneasy a week before having the menstrual; the laziness, the cravings and such. I’m still wondering whether those are the symptoms of PMS or is it just me giving excuses to myself when I’m not in the mood to do something. That makes me think, what a bad habit I do possess if my action is according to my mood. Logically thinking, it’s still sinful if I skip my prayer because I am so lazy. Hence, I should force myself a bit right. To at least do what I need to do for the sake of I have to do it and that is my responsibility. 

I came out with the idea of this because at times, I feel like giving myself too many excuses and cut myself too much slacks. And that’s not good for my own growth. I realize now that as we age, our responsibilities become more. I’m a grown up. (Freaking surprise face!) plus, I pay my own bill! 

Good night pretties! Assalamualaikum wbt.

Istanbul Aku Datang

okay. the title speaks for itself.

it's true that i watched this movie at cinema for two times, already. i believe when the online movie is out, then i will sitting idly, all smiling in front of my laptop, watching, i also believe that one day, when i have daughters of my own, i'll spend our movie-time together some time during weekends, laugh through out the funny scenes. Reverse a bit, i will also practically force their dad to watch this movie with me. seriously.

Sunday morning is beautiful as always. despite, some drama added to it, that too, still failed to wash away the harmonious feeling. truthfully, i am thankful for having certain problem in my life, because from there it's a sweet reminder for me not to do these little improper things to the guests. it's just not nice behaving like that. i pray that one day, you and me will have the courage to pluck out all these bad behaviors lie in our hearts. ameeen.. InsyaAllah.

back to Istanbul Aku Datang.

Frankly speaking, i admire Dian. she's an optimistic girl with very determined determination. i couldn't remember when was the last time i really hope for something as much as she did. the only slack was, she put all her hopes into human, not the Almighty. there were some bitter memories i had to go through few years back which frankly, made me think it'd be better to just follow the flow instead of hoping too much. however i think it's okay to be hopeful, as long as we put our hope in the right place.

besides all the cliche the love triangle that is portrayed in this movie, the whole story is realistic. it shows how a boy would behave if he already lost interest in the girl he used to love.

hint; when the girl says "I love you", he would hesitantly replies "I love you too" or just "me too".

never been there. never done that. but some of my friends can attest to this statement.

so you guys out there, if you still haven't watched this movie, lets do it!

take away from Istanbul Aku Datang.

1. Macbook is so tempted. i might as well get it one day. InsyaAllah.
2. Couldn;t believe myself that i actually watched this movie 2 times in the cinema. this only happen for transformers before.
3. If you love someone, Doa the best for both of you. insyaAllah, Allah will show the way.
4. Istanbul is really a nice place. with a beautiful scenery.

these two

1. I hope everyone, each and everyone of you lovely and handsome people will enjoy listening Cough Syrup, Melanie Martinez's version as much as I do. really.

i surrender to the sound of drum. in addition to that, there's lyrics saying "a wet world aches for a beat of a drum". so now tell me, how can possibly on earth i won't love this song? when the favourite word and sound collide together.

2. Akan Datang- Tomok.

all smiling, hugging heart-shape red pillow. looking like a girl who is terribly in love. truth is, in love with none but herself. for now. so while i'm at it, it's worth your money if you decide to spend on a movie ticket for Istanbul Aku Datang. this movie is definitely lifting up malay movie to another different level. frankly, for someone who roots for chic-flick comedy drama like yours truly, it's a thumb up.

good night.

Little Experience

Bismillah..

Lately I’ve found myself occupied with many other things, hence the shortage of time to write. I mean, to really write instead of just posting a few quickies from copy-paste interesting stories that I’ve found from internet.

This morning, I decided to spare sometime to write on something that I think worth sharing.

Firstly, it’d be very nice if you could read through this article. It’s true indeed.

http://www.yasminmogahed.com/2009/11/13/is-this-love-im-feeling/

TV plays an important role in shaping our mind, without we even realized it. Without I even realized it. Believe it or not, I used to believe that true love is the kind of love I saw in hindi movies. Oh yes, I am from the era when hindi movies overflowing our entertainment industry. As the time passed by, I’ve found reading, and then my perception of love changed accordingly to the books I’ve read. So you see, what we see, read, hear (through songs) indirectly shape our mind and how we look at things.

I am blessed to feel this so-called love myself. Really. But the thing is, it’s not really “love” after all. I felt miserable and down whenever the thought of him struck my mind. Maybe it’s due to the one-sided love that I felt hence I couldn't focus. He is the kind of guy that I thought was ideal to be a boyfriend or even a husband. However, we have to bear in mind, just like as we learnt in physics or chemistry, ideal doesn’t mean real. Ideal is based on our interpretation which is humanly and more often than not is wrong. From there I knew that I built up false interpretation of love. When the love was not there anymore, what’s left was obsession and urge to have it. To have him. I forgot for a while that he is human being with feeling. Not an expensive desk or chair or perfume that I could work hard for and keep for the rest of my life. The constant calls that sometimes he would not pick up or instant messages that he would not reply were stupod thing to do yet proved how hard I tried. Along the way, I also lost him as a friend he once was. 

Alhamdulillah, reading helped me a lot, in many ways. And time, too, played a very important factor to actually reshape my mental attitude towards love. I soon realized all the pain was my own self-inflicted. I could walk away from that.

 It was a huge struggle to get rid of the urge of wanting to have and keep him. I could say that was one of my biggest struggles I’ve encountered so far. I know it might be insignificant to some, but surely not for me. Alhamdulillah, I’ve finally find a way to let go and move on.

You know sometimes in life, we don’t really see beyond of what happen. Allah knows and even mentioned in the Quran. This kind of experience is also actually a helping hand for me to fully understand and apply the meaning of tawakkal and redha which I would say two simple words with great depth of meaning and not that easy to apply. When we lost something, it will be replaced with something better.InsyaAllah. Deep in myself, I knew I wasn't really scoring with flying colours, but looking back how my opinions towords this issue changed from the past years, I think I did not fail and InsyaAllah there's a huge room for improvement.

When there's no more love to offer, as a friend, prayers are all I have to replace. Insyaa Allah.

While waiting.take five

1.stressful period:either break you and re-shape your character.always choose to re-shape.
2.time is so valuable than money.choose your deeds wisely and enjoy moment to the fullest.
3.a thankful and grateful heart will always feel enough,and strive to be better.
4.read quran and its translation everyday because it is light in our life.
5.love our parents more than anyone else because by loving them we're rewarded with pahala.insyaAllah.

Salam Maal Hijrah

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Salam Maal Hijrah :)

semoga kisah hijrah rasulullah saw yang kita cintai lebih dari semalam dan semoga cinta untuk baginda bertambah pada hari-hari mendatang dapat kita jadikan teladan bersama hendaknya. InsyaAllah.

azam tahun baru?

1. semoga tahun depan boleh jadi tetamu di rumah Allah

source: yahoo image

tolong doakan ye.

2. dapat memikul tiap-tiap tanggungjawab dan amanah yang ada dengan sebaik-baiknya.

3. dan azam-azam tahun lepas yang kena carry forward ke tahun ni;semoga semuanya dapat dilaksanakan. amiin..

till then!

rumah manis

rumah.
memang adalah tempat paling best.

seriously.

i think the saying is true-home is where the heart is. i add somemore;home is where the heart and loved ones is.

sungguh. bahagia itu datang dalam banyak cara.tak perlu rumah besar gah macam istana, cukup dengan sederhana tapi ada muka-muka yang boleh tambah pahala dan penuh kasih sayang.

setakat ni, balik rumah is the best therapy.

so yeah, lets enjoy!

Ambition

Eghhhh i need my laptop. Theres not much fun blog from ipad eventho its convinient and such but i still need my laptop.

Hence i shall say good night for now!till then!

Assalamualaikum

ujian

hari ini dalam sejarah.
sebab?
esok tak akan ada lagi hari ini.

alhamdulillah.tipu kalau aku cakap hidup ak setenang lautan tanpa ribut.kalau dengar aku bagitahu itu, aku minta maaf awal2.ti bermakna aku tipu.

aku dalam phase yang sedang rancak diuji.dengan iman yang senipis kulit bawang dan kesabaran yang mungkin lagi nipis,aku panjatkan doa agar ak terus tabah. paling tidak pun,aku redha.bila redha,baru kita lagi bersyukur. dalam sepuluh nikmat yang Allah beri,satu aku diuji dan aku melatah. aku harap ada sesuatu yang baik yang mampu aku pelajari dari apa yang aku sedang lalui sekarang ni.insyaAllah.

jadi,yang paling penting di sini,jangan give up.
(Alquran 39:53)