After all of this thing, I hope you grow stronger than
before.
Remember the beauty of Alps that almost took your breath
away, such beauty that hardly to swallow in because it is so beautiful. That,
you almost cried just by looking at the magnificent mountains covered in snows.
Remember all one thousands of dream that you want to
accomplish while you still have the time in this world, remember the thoughts
you have during the train journey between those mountain from Swiss to Italy. You
surely want to make yourself a better version each day as the time passes by. Remember
the time when you called your best friend on one cloudy afternoon and cried to
her about your shattered dreams, rant on and on how he would never understand
your feelings but you are selfish enough to let go off him. Remember on how you
hated certain aspect of your work so much until you don’t know what to feel
anymore.
Now look back. And see things clearer.
These things happen because they want to shape you to be the
better version of you as you always wanted to be. There are some of your plans
that failed, certain hopes that just died and gone with the wind, only for you
to find out that god has better plans for you in store. For example, you surely
wouldn’t want to trade your trips to Interlaken for Prague, isn’t it? See, what
you don’t plan sometimes can turn out to be so well for you.
You love writing so much. That’s what you do when you are down,
then write your heart out. You have a few good friends that are hardly to find
as they listen to your twisted, immature sad love stories without judging and
give their time for you. And you have a sister who is blooming into one of the
most wonderful person you’ve ever met in your entire life, who shares the same
dreams with you, who support you despite she’s also is one of twisted too. Not everyone
has a sister who studied the shooting locations of your fave movies and brought
you there and now happened to be one of the best memories you two have
together.
So don’t tell me now you cannot further in whatever you have
in mind. Think again when you feel you are valueless because truth is, what
people say don’t matter as much as what god and prophet(pbuh) said more than
thousand years ago, and surely what your heart and mind says the best and right
for you.
I love you.
