little bit of advice

oops! this is against the title of the previous post. but I just can't resist to write about this. something useful i bet to some out there.

anyways, if you're applying for any scholarships or in the process of choosing what course to pick to pursue, the very first thing to do is to know what you really want to do. this is to avoid us to blame others if anything goes wrong in the future since more often than not, we tend to point out to others if something ugly came up. from my little experience in life, doing what we love to do is most enjoyable experiences eventho i might as well endured some bitter moments but yeah, all we need to do in times like that is to keep on going, no matter what.

secondly, some people have their own aim to work for certain company of their choice based on whatever reasons they've got, such as the leading oil and gas company in malaysia, PETRONAS then what are you waiting for? go on and apply the scholarship, then who knows you'll get be the new faces to continue the legacy. (ehemm, as if talking for myself. haha). on the other hand, if you want to do medic or economics if that's where your interest lies, go for it, give the best that you can.

and in the mean time, never ever let the action of praying to Allah for what's best slip away. after all, we often lack of judgment, and as much as we know ourselves there's Allah who know every of our intention and dream and understands us more than ourselves, there is one mighty hand that is always guiding us if we often beseech for his forgiveness and redha. He brings us to what's best to us after we put all the efforts to our goal. hence, doa adalah senjata orang mukmin. do pray, plan and if it's written what we want to be ours, they'll be.

oops. my battery is going to be flat very soon. good luck to all of us with job interviews and scholarships. may Allah shows us the right way. ameen.

end post of 2010

Thank you Allah for every single thing, for the air I breathe in and out, for the supportive parents, beloved and funny sisters, beautiful and wonderful boyfriends, the ones that make or ruin my day, for everything. i believe that is for my own good, and grasped the lessons within. insyaAllah.

i'll write again letter. in a new fresh sunny day on 2011. insyaAllah.

p/s: kawan2, countdown2 jugak. don't go beyond the limit okie. :))

just updates

Seriously, internet connection could get on my last nerve, at times. Even if I am online so early in the morning, the connection is pretty much ugly. Pretty and ugly in one sentence did sound a tad weird, don’t you think? Facebook is not exactly all time favourite website if I had to refresh all the time. See, I love facebook conditionally, mind you. 

Actually, I wanted to publish little bits and pieces of my UTP years but again had to conceal the idea for now. Been missing a few people that are close to me back in UTP and already in the realm of UTP-sickness. And yeap, that too need to be concealed tightly.

For the curious, nothing much updates from me. Just immense myself into unread books that had been untouched, waiting patiently to be read on shelves and watching movies that I’ve downloaded before coming back home. I believe the stock of movies and series that are in my possession could last for years. Hehe just imagine 500 gb full of only movies and series. But seriously, I always and always prefer tv. That’s the reason of irregular updates in my blog because I seriously feel bored when there’s no tv. I think so.

On the other note, congratulations harimau Malaya. Cayalah!

owh, anyone who needs something to read; u better get a copy of the tiger warrior. recommended. heee

Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah

I am very much thankful to Allah for the good news.
very much.

Alhamdulillah.

p/s: i have written and still is writing my experiences throughout beautiful years in UTP. insyaAllah, i'll get it published soon.
take care people.

a sunny day of December

It is good that I can easily change my templates using application in Blogspot. I’m satisfied with my new layout. Maroon, you always are my favorite next to Blue. It reminded me on how hard it was to do so back in the early years when I started blogging.

You seriously do not want to know about my very first blog. Anyone who ever read that one would laugh his/her heart out loud. Like, seriously. I showed that blog to a few people, as far as I remembered Syui, kak pin comel, mizah (flash a memory, no?), syamine,Natrah and a few more. But of course, my sense kicked in a while after, and then I had deleted the blog due to avoid myself from public humiliation. However, to be frank, deleting a blog was so much easier if I were to balance against of deleting a memory towards people or things. That, definitely took couple of years after. I’m happy I endured all of the experiences. A total bless in disguise, it was.

Today marked a significant point of my life because I had my very last presentation for my undergraduate studies. Alhamdulillah. Even though nothing to be so proud of, we managed to go through the presentation. No more exams or presentations after this. I’m free from all of that for quite some time before proceeding to works or perhaps to pursue master’s degree. I have intention on that matter, only in what specification has not been determined. That will be in my list of thinking later on.

People asked me about love. I don’t know the right answer, really. But all I can say is that love is pure. Love is the kind you feel towards your parents, your sisters (or brothers, if you do have) because this kind of love is like the aforementioned statement is pure and sincere. Stop classifying and add headaches to ourselves by trying very hard to define between cinta and sayang. In English, there only does have “love” word. Yeah, there are “adorable” and “like” too but I think you know the difference, right? In defining “cinta” and “sayang” case, is needless. at least for me.

All of sudden, I’m missing reading mimi’s writing. She has her own way to state facts or to create fictional stories in her original and sincere writing. Meems, I miss you ;)

books.

Books. They’re just tempting, aren’t they?

I’ve always had a thing for books. Even I am not sure enough when the habit resided in me. Maybe, the moment my father bought me a story book about a boy who ran away from home just because he wanted to chase the sun. It feels like a lifetime ago since the last time I saw that orange cover of the book. I am not sure what actually happened to the book since it lost from my eyesight long before I realized it.

I know myself always prefer fictional stories than facts; from adventurous to fairy tales. Hmmm.. Speaking of fairy tales, I really did have crush on Aladdin among all heroes described in the story books I read. The girl I quite disliked was Pocahontas. I think she thinks she’s hot but actually she’s not. Briar Rose was/still is my favorite among those beautiful princesses. I like better to refer that princess from Sleeping Beauty as Briar Rose compared to Aurora because I think more than half in the book portrayed of her living in the woods with her fairy godmothers where she was referred as Briar Rose not Aurora. Hence, don’t get confused. Instead of just watching the cartoon version, parents are advised to buy books for their children. There are a whole lot more in books to treasure.

My teenage years were filled with novels. I did read a lot, I think. But not as much as you think since I had to wait long for my turn. Thus, one of the quickest and simplest ways to read is to share reading with my friend. So there, you could see us lying on beds on weekends, reading the same novel. Sweet memories, those were.

And for now, is the right time to immense myself with reading. I have a few books in my list to purchase and currently, I am trying to finish Seven Japanese Tales and Three Weeks in Paris. Both do not charm me to root for the ending but well you know when we start reading, it’s hard to stop until the last page. I pray for that kind of persistence in everything I pursue, not only in reading. ameeen.

p/s: to those who have presentation tomorrow (like me), all the best. we can do it. InsyaAllah.

yesterday

Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah

Done with FYP.

I was enduring of shivering-my-spine experience for quite a whole week before every time the thought of FYP crossed my mind. It all ended yesterday and my examiners were all nice and friendly.

I didn’t know if my presentation was good or not, all I know that everything went well even though questions were bombarded from the floor. As my supervisor put it “high class question” LOL. My FYP mates who did different topic from mine who also presented their projects yesterday did also get those high class questions. Alhamdulillah, we managed to answer those with upper-middle-class answer. 

p/s: you might as well want to read this walaupun perasaan ini best

walaupun perasaan ini best

Walapun perasaan ini best, tapi lebih kepada cuak dan nervous sebenarnya.

Cik mizah, izinkan saya sambung dalam English bole?  Bukan nak poyo, tapi sebab saya  tengah dengar lagu English kt playlist. Tak synchronize mind and apa yg nak ditulis if it were in malay. Ecewahh :P

Okay. Back on track :)

Graduation.

Well yeah, it’s approaching. Time does fly with very high velocity, don’t you think? I do think so. Sometimes, like I said before, I found myself taking time or people for granted. Knowing that they would be just standing there to wait for me to classes, or dinner, or hang outs. Knowing that I have few good friends that I can call over whenever I have problems, need advices or just to chill whenever hot issues came out is something I should be grateful for the rest of my life.

I know we can still meet each other after this, going out on weekends but hey, I truly know the fact when he or she is to be married someday, nothing is going to be the same. Myself is included. I surely wouldn’t want to call up my good friends in the middle of the night just to ask what should I wear for interviews, or if I get buzz-ed by someone I like in the future. Hehe. and that applies in their case too. I know I’m a good listener and all (even tho I like to interrupt here and there while they’re confiding to me. perasan kan? I know. cut me some slacks :P), but still they might as well think twice to call up on working nights because I heard we’ll be definitely flat on bed by 10 pm. Hoho. For the abovementioned statement on nothing is going to be the same is due to unavailability for us to hang out as much as we want to, or to go knocking on their doors for maggi or Nescafe for a late night talk.

So yeah, seriously this graduation saddens me a bit and I know I definitely am going to miss UTP and I have accept the fact it’s going to be hard to get over it. but first experience on getting over taught me a lot, hence even though I know I’m going to miss UTP once in a while, I promise to myself that I will SMILE because I encountered so much good and sweet memories here despite of there were few sour memories spots. Hey, that’s life.

During the last few days in SSP before we headed for different way in life, one of my dearest friends told me this:

“Kalau nak bahagia dunia akhirat, jangan tinggal solat dan al-quran”

:)

p/s: I wanna write more but the real feeling isn’t here yet. Hence, this is all I can manage for now ;)